I want to find my rainbow.

Current mood: 99% down and out, 1% hyper
Current weather: Brrr...
Days to 'last' ballet lesson: 4

The weather is really cold today. It's raining lightly. Parents are out, and me and Sis are left at home. Anyway, I have a horrible feeling that the Crestar fees would cost a bomb, and I predict that the ballet studio will have a sad atmostphere on Sunday. Sigh. Where has my rainbow gone to? Everything was perfect until one fateful Sunday when my dreams were all shattered. I don't feel like learning under other teachers. My ballet teacher was the best teacher I had. My painkiller to kill the pain, the rainbow after the rain. My life will have one big black hole w/out my ballet class. What will our 7-coloured-rainbow become when our class is seperated? Isabell is going to Crestar. Mars most likely will go. What about me? NO. Never. If I could go there, I wouldn't be having my lessons in the CC in the first place. More persuading my mother will only result in more disappointment. What's the point of going to ballet w/out my Mars and beloved teacher? No atmostphere at all. Going into the studio during a rainy day and seeing teacher's face will make all of us happy. No other teachers can be compared to her. Sigh. Mars doesn't understand because her family is able to let her go to Crestar. I shouldn't even join ballet in the first place. I don't regret joining ballet but my parents are using this reason to stop me frm buying other things. Wtf? Okay, my heart is seriously aching now. I've been blogging so much about this that I think all of you would be bored already. I'll go and watch Meteor Garden II and see if it will lift up my spirits. Au revoir.

;loveyou,
katherine.